18th Aug 2006

i once wrote this for my precious and v loved qt -

My dear, I feel I've been neglecting you a little of late..And its perhaps because of this, there is a gap now..I want the best for you as much as you want the best for me..No matter what you have done, are doing, or will do in the future, I know I'll never know how you really feel even though I say I do at times..Just as ADG said, you're old enough to make your own decisions..You chose this path, you bear it alone, the good and the bad..I may not agree with everything you do, but I wont question(its terrible having to feel bad and have to answer to everything..you have enough of that from your sisters, you dont need mine), I wont have a change in opinion(I accept you as my friend, my da jie, my dearest Qt just the way you are)..I'm with you, always..Hook pinkies without fingers crossed..Whenever you feel like giving up, I want to be the first to come to your mind..I'm willing to be the one to give you a helping hand, a comforting shoulder, a charming smile, a pretty face, a Palm Beach salted fish fried rice, a Lorong 5 rojak, a Crystal Jade dim sum session, etc..You need it, I got it~~ We shall always stay as MENG HUAN MEI SHAO NU..So what if youth and beauty doesnt stay forever, its in our blood!!Right da jie??Injected like the inking system you talked about just now..P.S Wo shi suo gu zhang men ren, ni shi le gu zhang men ren..

after reading this, it brought back alot of memories..times she suffered with him, times she was unhappy, times she was forced to make a decision..

here, i have another piece of message for you -
dearest qt, by now we all know how you feel, what you go through, but does he??like i said..yes he is unhappy and resentful, but you are not the cause of it..you are not responsible for all this, neither do you have to go through all this shit with him..we want you to be happy, and you may be happy now, but in the long run, i see you'll be drained, drained of your emotions..there's no right and wrong in love..and there's no prize for being a considerate samaritan for him..you're not going to make an impact, seriously..he cant expect you to be cooped up with him for as long as he is feeling that way, am i right??thats too selfish of him..
do harp on what i say alright??it pains me to receive your sad and emo smses, telling me you're lonely, and weeping..wanting to leave, but you cant bear to..both you and i have been through it, and i've found my happiness, i believe you can too..
my precious one, all of us dont want you to go through that again..we love you n_n